All that never will be

Sifting through your old thoughts,
Realizing a little too late what you thought of me.

Blinded by my own emotions (Happy and Sad),
never noticed how your emotional self haunted you.

Im caught up in my own web of relations,
I realize I neglected you more often than not.

But do you not think it is difficult to understand you,
when all you do is go quiet and refuse to tell me?

Time spent with you I remember and cherish,
Those moments that will never return and will never be forgot.

You might think Im just being naïve,
Do understand that Im no master of my emotions but I can gather my thoughts.

I guess you are right about the crossroads that you speak of,
Even if i turn back now, you will be long gone.

But i think you were partly wrong - You have moved on, but
I feel stranded, all alone.

Pleasure

There is a pleasure in the pathless woods,
There is a rapture on the lonely shore,
There is society, where none intrudes,
By the deep sea, and music in its roar,
I love not man the less, but Nature more..

- Lord Byron

For You...

It is the summer of my smiles - flee from me Keepers of the Gloom,
Speak to me only with your eyes, It is to you I give this tune...

You've seen me

Some things i have realized over the years:

You are stronger than you think you are. You are stronger than people think you are.

I realize that, unlike many people i know, I can never believe that everything happens for the best or fool myself into believing in something that has a remote chance of happening. Maybe Im just too mature to fool myself. But i do believe that we have the strength to deal with whatever is thrown our way.

A beautiful piece of music, a touching scene from my favourite movie, a shower of sudden rain, cloudy weather, a walk on a lazy afternoon...These are the things that make me really happy. You do not need people all the time to make you happy. People are important, but unpredictable too. I know I can fulfill expectations, but it does not make sense to do that because not everyone can. It is ironical that I get happiness in making people happy, but I also realize that my happiness needs to be my own. I really do not know at this point whether it is worth it.

People will move in and out of your life. Let leaving people go. It does not make any sense to impose your friendship on them. If they realize your worth, they will not forget you. Ever.

Some things you will realize only when its too late to do anything about them. Forgive yourself.

I still do not like change too much. I still stick to the same movies again and again, the same foolish piece of music, the same lonely road to walk on. And I do not get bored of it. At All. For years together.

And yes, I can hold my own. Against Anyone.